At Last

I wanted to take a moment and thank all of you for the comments and/or the emails I received with words of encouragement regarding my last post. I appreciated it very, very, much! And not to worry, all is better.

Moving on.

My 70 year old father is planning on traveling to Nicaragua this Sunday. He has been wanting to go back and visit for years but just never made it a point to actually do it. Until now. Nicaragua is located in Central America. He was born in Managua and came to the United States at the age of seventeen. When my brothers and sister and I were little, he would tell us stories of his childhood. Colorful, extreme, happy times for him. He always told us that he wanted all of us to go visit one day. Sadly, none of us will be joining him. He will be making the trip alone. He still has some family and friends living there. But his visit home has me a bit uneasy. First of all, he is deathly afraid of flying! Once, while traveling to Acapulco, he almost passed out because our flight had severe turbulence and kept dropping in altitude! I'd never seen my father turn so many colors at once! lol My other concern is his health, while he's pretty healthy, what if something happens to him while he's there? I'm just a worrier, I know this. I am excited that his dream will finally become a reality. I just hope he has a great time and comes back safely. So my brothers and sister and nieces and nephews and I will be having an early Thanksgiving dinner with him this Friday. Good times for sure! You know it's funny, I don't have what you would call a "normal" relationship with my dad -for many reasons that I will keep to myself. Lets just say, I keep my distance. Oh we are on speaking terms and all that, it's just that I am guarded and pull away if he gets too close. But sometimes, like now when I'm worrying about him, I start thinking about how old he is and that despite our differences and the pain he caused me and my family, he is still my dad. He's the one I was given and I can't give him back! lol They don't have a return policy on parents! Faults and all, I do love him, in my own way.

Buen viaje papa!