Sunday, November 14, 2021

Sunday Night Thoughts

 My last post was prompted by events that occurred over the weekend.  The thing about social media is that no matter how big we think this world is, it really isn't.  Someone inevitably knows someone, that knows someone, that knows you, that knows him or her -whatever the case may be.  And so, no matter how very hard you have worked on yourself these past two years to get to a good place, one little picture, his face, that smile I adored is suddenly staring back at you -if only through a picture.  And sadly, that's all it took for my emotions to knock me down.  Suddenly I am listening to "make me cry" music which in turn urges my fragile mind to write sappy poetry.  Hence my previous post.  I wrote so much in the past two days I surprised even myself.  Lucky for you, I only published one poem.  Maybe later I will share more. 

 I know what I am going through is temporary and tomorrow is another day and all that.  That's why I am allowing myself to feel every single emotion, feeling, tears that I have inside me right now.  Because I know that I will be ok.  I am ok.  This weekend I kind of just brooded at home, in my thoughts, memories, wishful thinking, but no regrets.  

Onward.

I hope your weekend was a great one.  I hope you did something fun and laughed.  Mine was good, despite the broken heart thing and I laughed.  Alot.  So there's that.

May sweet dreams guide you into the new week.

-peace.

ache

they came like waves crashing unto the shore

flooding my mind with memories

of you

of us

i close my eyes and transport myself to the day we first met

how nervous we both were

the flirting 

we loved to tease one another

our blossoming friendship

the spur of the moment trips to the book store for no reason

our countless and very opinionated conversations,

sitting together without speaking a word 

yet feeling as if we just had the best conversation

the calmness

the ease with which our love grew

laughing incessantly at who knows what

good times

bad times

arguments

making-up

endless kisses

the best hugs

the ardent passion that we emitted 

smoldering looks we often gave each other

my heart sighs

how very much i miss you

and crave you

and always will.



Sunday, November 7, 2021

Whirlwind

 Greetings and salutations bloggies,

By now we are in full blown Thanksgiving mood am I right?  But I still have October on my mind.  Ahh yes, the month that for everyone except  Texas, is the beginning of Fall.  Color changing leaves, brisk air hugging our beings, Halloween parties, spooky stories and of course, my birthday to kick it off.  I hope your 31 days of October were spectacular.  Mine began bright and cheery and pretty much remained the same until the very last day of the month. -I will get to that later.  Work consumed me but so did celebrating and post celebrating the day of my birth.  There were lunch dates, dinner dates, getaways and plenty of good times.  I have the best friends and family I tell ya.  I'm a lucky gal.

Sadly, on the last day of the month, tragedy would strike a long time family friend.  His eighteen year old daughter was fatally shot and killed while at a Halloween party.  She was an innocent bystander.  A beautiful, young and intelligent human being's life was cut short because some stupid kids were fighting and one of them thought that brandishing a gun and then shooting it, made him a bad ass.  When in reality he is just a dumb-ass who is now a murderer.  I swear I am so angry about this.  It seems that human life is just thrown to the wind and given no regard to how precious it is.  Some kids today and yeah, adults too, are heartless.  I pray that all involved will be brought to justice. I know it will not bring our friend's daughter back.  But at the very least, it will bring them closure.

Be Better, friends.  Be better.

May the rest of November be happier, full of smiles and plenty of hugs for all of us.

-peace.


Tragedy at NRG Park

Hello bloggies.  By now, most of you, if not all, have heard about the tragedy that occurred in my fair city on Friday night at a Travis Scott concert.  My heart aches for all of the victims and their families.  My head is still spinning, wondering how going to such a normal activity such as attending a concert, can turn so deadly.  I know, I know, bad things happen anywhere and at any given time.  However, I can bet that no one, could ever have imagined the chaos and the devastating events that transpired.  I personally know a hand-full of kids that were in attendance that night.  By God's grace, all of them are accounted for and made it home to their families in one piece. Shaken of course, but alive.  Such a senseless, senseless tragedy.  I know right now that the blame game is strong, there is alot of finger-pointing, passing the buck, sketchy details emerging and the legal community ready to seek justice for such egregious negligence.  I pray with every fiber of my being that something good comes out of this, something positive so this will never happen again.  I pray that the lives lost will not have died in vain.  And I ask you bloggies, if you are of the praying kind, to please join me and ask for strength, guidance and grace.


Sunday, October 3, 2021

Happy Birthday to Me


 Another year

A new beginning

A clean slate

365 days of opportunities

to love

to be loved

to laugh

to dream

to fulfill my dreams

to live passionately

with purpose

to be kind

to listen

to inspire

to make amends

to celebrate 

to start over

to try

to fail

to try again

I was gifted  

another year of life.  

This is fifty-five.



Tuesday, September 14, 2021

Whirlwind -Inside my mind and other quandaries

 Texas froze.  People froze to death, literally.  A new variant emerged.  Governor Abbott and a bunch of other imbeciles decided they know what's best for women in the state of Texas and took away our right to choose. (for the record, not that it is anyone's business, I'm pro-life.  However, I take issue with those that want to decide what is best for any woman's body.  Makes my blood boil.  Oh but that is another post for another time.  Nonetheless, I'm sure Ruth Bader Ginsburg is turning in her grave. 

Where was I? Oh yes, mask vs. no mask fights.  "...but my rights" assaults against airlines, grocery store employees, bank employees, hell, innocent bystanders.  Let's see anything else? Oh yes, Hurricane Nicholas is wreaking havoc along our Texas coast as I type.  -We are the popular state lately, eh?  So I'm sitting here, having post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) from the freeze back in February, because our power may or may not go out tonight.  Currently, 52,000 are without power. Again.  Still.  Power grid be damned right Gregie?  Anyway, my nerves are everywhere.  I can't keep still.  My thoughts are erratic and sleep is out of the questions at this point.  I live in Houston.  It seems that we will not receive the brunt of  the rain as originally thought, but we will experience the winds.  Hmm, flooding or wind damage? Which to choose?  

I've lived here all of my life.  Yet, every June 1st I cringe because it's the start of hurricane season.  This was a tropical storm when I woke up this morning -err, yesterday morning now.  By early evening it became a Cat-1 hurricane.  No stranger to major storms at all, we ALL know what to do to prepare.  Sometimes the meteorologists are spot on and other times they are not.  Through no fault of their own of course.  I mean, storms have their own agenda and change course constantly.  

My heart goes out to all who are being directly affected.  I pray that damage is minimal and no loss of life occurs.  Send us your prayers, good vibes, good karma -we need anything we can get.

Oh yeah.  Almost forgot.  I was watching the news earlier and as the reporter was doing a live shot in Galveston, guess who walked by?  Check it out.

Man dressed as Michael Myers from 'Halloween' arrested in Galveston ahead of Hurricane Nicholas - ABC13 Houston

Who says Texas has no sense of humor? 

Monday, May 17, 2021

Rainy Sunday

Rainy Sunday

Rest. Don't think. Don't do.  Just live in the moment.
Most times the it is a blessing.
Today it was a curse.

Too much time to let my mind wander aimlessly
worse case scenarios
never-ending problems
tragic endings
worry
pity this is not about ideas for my next story or poem

Lots of talking myself off the ledge of anxiety
The thunder breaks my fall
Once again I escape the abyss


Sunday Night Thoughts

 My last post was prompted by events that occurred over the weekend.  The thing about social media is that no matter how big we think this w...