happy sunday bloggies. what crazy and fun things did you get into this weekend? spill it. i had good one. friday i finally saw my friend. the one that i just recently (december) reconciled with, only to have it blow up in my face, remember? yeah, him. well, the planets all aligned and there was a full moon that night, so meeting him for drinks, seemed only natural, don't you agree?
it was bittersweet. i arrived first. we met at a quaint italian restaurant. i sat facing the door, so i could see him when he arrived. our eyes met, the minute he walked through the door, we trepidly walked towards the other, until finally falling into an embrace that lasted a long, long, time. we talked for hours, drank too much wine, laughed, cried -ok so, i cried. we got angry, i cried again, we hugged again, and in the end, he walked me to my car, hugged one last time, and went our separate ways. our friendship will never be the same. something died when we had our fallout. but i got my closure, face to face this time, not over the phone. we both said things to each other that needed to be said. so i am at peace with that part of my life, and can now, finally, move on.
relationships. real? or a fad quickly fading?
alright. so my gal pals (you know, m&m -otherwise known as, michelle and maricela) and i were having lunch today and conversation quickly turned to, what else? men. those pesky little critters. today's topic was whether or not the ever elusive "relationship" still exists or is it a thing of the past? what prompted this discussion was that we had just learned that yet, another couple that we know and love, who also happen to be dear friends of ours, are getting divorced. the reason? or at least, the reason given? "it's just not there anymore" -really? just like that? they have been married sixteen years. my own parents were married twenty-five years until one day, my dad decided he didn't love my mother anymore and wanted something more. -his words. so you see, i'm just a little jaded about this topic. anyway, we all agreed that relationships take work and a lot of effort from both parties. but while i remain hopeful and ever the romantic, my girls, michelle and maricela, believe that no one is meant to be together forever or until they die. they believe that it is what it is and that the relationship will end, eventually. i respect their opinions, but i don't agree with them. i refuse to believe that everyone should go into a relationship -platonic or romantic, with the expectation that it will fail, eventually. that's not very healthy mind thinking. amiright here? they called me a "helpless romantic" and that's okay, but i don't just feel this way about love, i feel this way about all types of relationships in our lives. if we all thought that way, then really, what would be the point. your thoughts?
on being footloose and fancy free
as some of you may know, or have noticed (if you are a regular reader of my blog), i have recently been battling with inner demons and emotional crap. well, to offset said crap, i've been seizing the day, so to speak. meaning, taking risks i normally would never take, going left when i should be going right. saying yes, when clearly, the answer is no. i've become a rebel it would seem. can't say how much longer i'm going to keep this up. but it's been fun watching people's reactions to my new found attitude. maybe it's because i really just don't care anymore. or maybe it's because i'm daring myself to come out of my shell and try new things. maybe, there is no rhyme or reason for it. it just is.
alright kids, it's a brand new week, i wish happy and productive things for you!