Monday, September 3, 2007

Breathe

Life is constantly changing.
Fast paced
running,
playing catch-up
projects incomplete.

I feel that way now.
I am getting older.
Even a bit wiser...(no comments from the peanut gallery)
I've been sucker punched a few times, my heart and my spirit have been broken, mended and broken again...

There is so much I need to do, so much to begin, so much to finish!

Hurry up! Life is passing by!

Slow down! Savor the moment, savor the ride...

And so I breathe.

Inhale, exhale.

Even though life is draining at times, even though it can be frightening, and even though some of the choices I make may be horrible or get me into trouble, life can also be exhiliarating, intoxicating and beautiful.

Good times and more to come.

Intoxicating

What is it about meeting someone new that makes us act so "giddy", "excited" even silly at times? Or as my friend Monies would say "guudy" ( sorrry if I mispelled your "made up" word!!!) We've all been there at one time or another. We meet someone, there is mutual interest, contact information is exchanged, as are a few flirty banters and we go on our merry way...expectant!

I have a couple of friends who are going through the very thing I'm talking about! They are useless right now! All starry-eyed and grinning from ear to ear ALL the time... Zoning in and out of conversations, their minds elsewhere...And that's a great thing! Truly it is! Sigh, it's been a very long time since I have been in "that place"...and I'm a little jealous. But not in a "I hate you" kind of way, rather, in a "Sigh..." kind of way...

Maybe it's time to let down my barriers. Maybe it's time I start trusting again...

Maybe.

It's a bit intimidating this meeting new people thing. Meeting men. Nowadays, dating is so difficult and cumbersome. Everyone is trying too hard, not hard enough, annoyed at the mere thought of making an effort to get to know someone; going out! We all complain about it yet we continue to do it!

How else will we get there? To where he/she is?

Sigh. So yeah, I'm itching to have "that feeling" in my life again.

I'm ready now.

written on August 26, 2007

Delirious

When I am laying beside you
in your arms.

My heart is so full and content
could it possibly carry any more happiness inside?

I wake up in the wee hours of the morning just to watch you sleep. I gaze at your body,and kiss your face ever so lightly (so as not to wake you) I kiss the small birthmark on your face that I adore and you hate. I lay in your arms and listen as our hearts synchronize with each other.

Sometime later, as the sun is rising, I open my eyes only to find you staring at me, just as I had been doing earlier.

We smile at each other and as I am about to say something, you interrupt me with your kisses.

Delirious.

written on August 26, 2007