They say that, "that which does not kill you, makes you stronger." I should be friggin Wonder Woman by now! But I'm not. In fact, I've been kind of a blob of emotions lately. And I'm starting to get on my nerves! Life has been a proverbial bitch to me and to my family lately. A series of "situations", "predicaments" and "realizations" have been raining on our parade as of late. Despite this, we've all managed to get back up, to keep going, to continue fighting the good fight. The thing is, sometimes, I have a harder time "getting back up" and "fighting the good fight." than the others. As those that read my blog on the regular know, I battle with bouts of depression. The "episodes" come and go and with the help of a therapist and meds and good friends, (present bloggers/followers included) I get through. But lately, I don't know if it's hormones or what, but I'm a basket case! I've been crying and having anxiety attacks a lot more frequently than is the norm. Sometimes, I think that I'm just tired. Of life in general. I want a new one. -Silly me. But it's true, I want to escape. Disappear from this which is my life for a while and go somewhere new. Think about it, how cool would it be to start over? To create a new persona? I think it would be incredible, don't you? Unfortunately, it doesn't always work that way. Sure, I could take off anywhere in the world and create a new identity and make new friends, etc. But I would never actually do it because I have ties here. My family, my home, my life. This led me to think about erasing our mistakes, or a part of the day we didn't like or creating one we did. Kind of like an Etch a Sketch. Yet another cool idea. I know, I know, I'm totally "on" tonight!
Meh, life is life, you take the good, you take the bad, you take them both and there you have, the facts of life! -Sorry, I couldn't resist. If you didn't get the reference, don't worry about it. I'm a dork. As for dealing with my blob of emotions, I'll just continue to do what I've been doing. Praying, working out, meditating, keeping my chin up, and going forward. Always forward. Oh and of course, laughter. In fact, I think I see an I Love Lucy marathon in my future.
Well kids, that's it for tonight. We're at midweek already, make it count!