Ever since I began this journey of self-discovery and creating a better version of myself, I have had to do a lot of soul searching, face the demons that had been dormant for most of my life. Well, those demons are awake now that I'm "cleaning house." All this probing into myself has not been easy and proven to be a daunting task. What I have come to realize though, is that we are all accountable for our actions. We are where we are because of choices we made. Not anyone else. Everyone in their own way always looks for an out. Always looks the other way. No one wants to deal or confront a problem, confront the demon(s). So we run. Well, I suddenly find myself very tired. I refuse to live my life as I have been. No more Ms. Nice Guy! I acknowledge and accept, and own the fact that because of the choices I made or didn't make, I am in this predicament. Nothing in life worth having ever comes easy, and if it does, it comes at a price. I realize that. So I continue to fight the good fight, and though at times I fall and want to stay down, I force myself to get back up because if I give in, the demons win and my life remains the same.
Besides, I'm a sore loser.
Change is coming. Stay tuned...
4 comments:
Here here!
Well said, my dear. You're a woman after my own heart. Without facing up to our fears and demons, we will never truly be able to live a fulfilled and happy life.
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Thank you, thank you! LOL It's true though, I'm finally seeing hte light at the end of the tunnel!!! :)
It is always a good thing to look at ourselves and learn from our mistakes. It is really the only way to change our lives for the better.
Having this much self awareness is half the battle won. Good for you!
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