I wrote about my friend a few posts ago. I told you he is someone that I love with all of my heart, that has recently been diagnosed with cancer. Well, this morning i woke up feeling like this...
even still. i never stopped.
he just told me his hair is starting to fall out. (residuals from the chemo) and all i could think of was how scared he sounded. i told him all the right things, remained positive and upbeat and gave him encouragement and even laughter. i told him he could have some of my hair. if you know me, you know i have A LOT of hair. i think what god forgot to give me in stature, he made up for it in my hair. that made him laugh. but really, what do you say to someone that is going through that? i fucking hate cancer! did i tell you that already? i do. i've lost too many friends to it and i HATE it.
i've been sick the last couple of days (stupid cold) so i can't go see him and that bums me out. but i don't want to get him sick. so until i'm better, texting and phone calls is all we have. we laugh and laugh. i try my best to keep our talks and visits happy and silly. sometimes we're serious, but not too often. i think laughing and loving him is much better than being serious, don't you?
i pray and pray that the treatment works. i don't cry because i don't have time to cry. i feel that if i break down, i won't be able to pull myself back together. and so, i haven't. but i don't know how much longer i can keep it up. y'all know i'm an emotional person. (if you read my blog regularly) bleh.
christmas is a few days away and i'm going to do my best to make it a great one. for me and for him. i try not to let this consume me. as i have my own life and problems to deal with. and for the most part, it's not consuming me. but today, today he just sucked the life out of me when he told me about his hair.
so i have a favor to ask of you, if you pray, please pray for my friend. his clean bill of health would be the best christmas present ever!
this has been my sunday morning kids, thanks for dropping by. now i'm off to the dreaded malls to buy last minute christmas gifts.