Sunday, December 22, 2013

Sunday Morning...

I wrote about my friend a few posts ago.  I told you he is someone that I  love with all of my heart, that has recently been diagnosed with cancer. Well, this morning i woke up feeling like this...

my heart aches, i'm at a loss as to what to do and how to help and i'm worried. how do you help someone feel better about things that is going through chemo?  i want to to take his pain away, i want to make him laugh and forget about his illness.  but how do i do that?  i love this person with all of my heart.  even now.
even still. i  never stopped.

he just told me his hair is starting to fall out.  (residuals from the chemo) and all i could think of was how scared he sounded.  i told him all the right things, remained positive and upbeat and gave him encouragement and even laughter.  i told him he could have some of my hair.  if you know me, you know i have A LOT of hair.  i think what god forgot to give me in stature, he made up for it in my hair.  that made him laugh.  but really, what do you say to someone that is going through that?  i fucking hate cancer! did i tell you that already?  i do.  i've lost too many friends to it and i HATE it.

i've been sick the last couple of days (stupid cold) so i can't go see him and that bums me out.  but i don't want to get him sick.  so until i'm better, texting and phone calls is all we have.  we laugh and laugh.  i try my best to keep our talks and visits happy and silly.  sometimes we're serious, but not too often.  i think laughing and loving him is much better than being serious, don't you?  

i pray and pray that the treatment works.  i don't cry because i don't have time to cry.  i feel that if i break down, i won't be able to pull myself back together.  and so, i haven't.  but i don't know how much longer i can keep it up.  y'all know i'm an emotional person. (if you read my blog regularly) bleh. 

christmas is a few days away and i'm going to do my best to make it a great one.  for me and for him.  i try not to let this consume me.  as i have my own life and problems to deal with.  and for the most part, it's not consuming me.  but today, today he just sucked the life out of me when he told me about his hair.  

so i have a favor to ask of you, if you pray, please pray for my friend.  his clean bill of health would be the best christmas present ever!

this has been my sunday morning kids,  thanks for dropping by.  now i'm off to the dreaded malls to buy last minute christmas gifts.  

be good!


CWMartin said...

I'll be glad to pray for your friend. Father, all things are in Your Will, and by your allowance. And we trust that all things work to the good for those who have faith in You. We pray that healing of body and soul are in Your will for this friend, that You will take him by the hand and raise him up again from this illness. Cancer is such a hated disease, because of the pain and death it causes in our lives. We humbly ask you to ease that pain, remove that disease, and allow Your will to be done in his life. In Christ's name, Amen.

Yvonne said...

CW- Amen! Thank you for that, I truly appreciate it. Merry Christmas! :)

Bouncin Barb said...

It's very tough to sit and know there's nothing you can do other than what you are doing. Holding a hand, laughing with him and crying with him is a huge help. I pray for a cure all around and will for your friend. Xc

Robin said...

Of course I will pray for your friend. And You. May knowing that God is watching over you both make this all just a little bit easier.

David Batista said...

And here you were just telling me to be more upbeat and stay positive! :)

Sounds like we're both down in the dumps, but I'm very sorry to hear about your friend. Cancer really does suck. I hate it, too! But your friend is so very lucky to have someone like you in his corner. You're amazing, girl!

Barbara said...

Cancer in any form is a total downer. My husband was on deaths door with a massive amount of lymphoma in his belly. I kept a journal, just for me, to get through it. I've turned it into an eBook, free download on my blog.
Having gone through that, I include every cancer patient in my prayers, believe me.
Always more difficult this time of year, but the new year is upon us and I feel very hopeful about 2014. I pray your friend will be celebrating with you soon!

Yvonne said...

All- Thank you for your kind words, prayers, emails, support. I am humbled and deeply touched. Thank you again. I'm happy beyond words.