this break-up business is for the birds. seriously. i'm so ready to be over it and yet, here i am, writing about not being able to be over it. this blows. and not in a good way. while it's gotten a little bit easier, and by that i mean, i'm not crying every five minutes, it's still difficult for my heart to assimilate what my head already has. i have good days and bad days and then days that just need not to be spoken of, ever again. i've gone through my "i'm gonna drink myself into oblivion" phase, my anger phase, my feeling sorry for myself phase and now, i'm in the "miss him so much i can't stand myself" phase. yeah. that's where i am right now. oh i've been keeping myself busy. doing all the right things one does when trying to get over someone. and it helps, it really does, to have a support system readily available to you. my support crew is awesome. but even with that, when you're alone, winding down after a long day, with only yourself to keep you company, that's when it gets a little crazy. a lot of times i just want to shut off this mind of mine. just tell it to stop playing scenes over and over in my head. but it doesn't listen, dammit. it just doesn't listen. meh. i know it's going to get better. and i will be better. eventually.
funny thing about breaking up with someone, all of a sudden, everyone's got a friend that they would just LOVE you to meet. i love them for trying but please, give me some space and lots and lots of time. the last thing i need right now is to jump into another relationship. still, i can guarantee that my friends will not stop trying. especially now, since the holidays are almost upon us. i'm thinking of starting my own order of nuns. what do you think? i know my stuff. i'm catholic, went to catholic school for twelve years. know the nuns' habits (see what i did there?) and am sure i can recruit at least five other women like me. heh. think it'll fly? yeah, me either.
alright, that's my cue to go night night. tomorrow is another day. make it count bloggies. and if you're still reading, you're awesome. thanks for the support.
come back in a few days. we'll catch up, sing kumbaya and hug. kidding. no really, i'm kidding.
is it friday yet???