My heart so full of love
I long to share with you
but you are not here
Life can be cruel -yvonne
Is it me? Or do the holidays make you super emotional and sappy? -more so than usual. No? Just me? Figures. Well I am, super emotional and extra sappy these days. Not really in the "woe is me" kind of way. More like, "When is it my turn?" kind of way. What am I rambling about? Why, life of course. And men, And relationships -with myself and with others. And self-fulfillment and being happy with yourself and your life. That's what I'm talking about. This time of year, for me, is always about taking inventory of the past year and asking myself if I was successful? Did I reach my goals? Or if I failed, did I learn from my mistakes? Did I become a better person, daughter, sister, friend, lover? Oh come on, doesn't everyone ask themselves these questions? Wait. Don't tell me. And oh em gee, do I get sappy! I'm crying at the drop of a hat, everything is so sweet, so romantic, so ridiculously happy. And that's when it hits me. I'm alone. I'm not in a serious relationship with anyone. I guess this time of year just reminds me of that little fact of my life. And it bugs the hell out of me. I try to get past it because let's be serious, living your life every day in a tizzy because you're not dating anyone is just ridiculous, wouldn't you agree? Yeah, me too. Ugh. See what I mean? I should go hibernate with the bears and resurface in the Spring. Or whenever they come back out. I don't even get this way during Valentine's Day. But not to fret my friends, this is only a temporary bout of insanity. I'll be fine after the new year.
Alright. Enough of that. It's the first week of December and you know what that means right? It means starting this coming Saturday, I will turn into a social butterfly until New Year's Day. This month is always a busy one for me. As some of you may know, lawyers love to party in December. (well, pretty much all year, but in December they go into overdrive) My boss has given me my list of parties he would like me to attend and "market" our firm, not to mention all of my own parties I plan on attending, strictly for pleasure. So yeah, it's about to get C-R-A-Z-Y up in here. Which leaves little time to wallow in a pity party, wouldn't you agree?
I actually feel a lot better having written down my feelings. Sometimes, that's all you need to pick yourself up. This is why my blog is so important to me, it's my sanctuary. Comments or no comments, it's my reasoning in this world of confusion.
Thanks for being so great! Do me a favor, go out and so something amazing for yourselves.
And remember, Santa's watching.