the group, dead or alive, a british new wave band from the eighties, wrote and performed the lyrics to the song in the title of this post. i thought it appropriate for my story tonight. and? it's all i had.
nothing like your world spinning out of control, (literally) to make you appreciate the little things in life. little things like, breathing, walking, smiling, talking. you know, the usual. my fourth of july holiday was grand! the days that followed, however, have not been so great. i spent friday (my day off) laid up in bed, not being able to stand because of severe dizziness. luckily, the malaise only lasted a few hours. yay! my day was not a total bust after all! so i went on with my original plans. running errands and attending a swimming party in the evening. well, saturday morning i woke up to nausea extreme dizziness again. the dizziness was unbearable. nothing i did would make it stop or at least, let up. on the contrary, it only seemed to get worse. so after spending most of the day in bed, i finally called my sister to drive me to the er. three hours, a ct scan, an ekg, 3 vials of blood and $100 co-pay later, i was told that i am suffer from benign positional vertigo (bpv). which basically means that there is a disturbance within the inner ear. the inner ear has fluid-filled tubes called semicircular canals. the canals are very sensitive to movement of the fluid, which occurs when we change positions. the fluid movement allows our brain to interpret our body's position and maintain our balance. it usually occurs when a small piece of bone-like calcium breaks free and floats within the tube of the inner ear, sending confusing messages to our brain. thus making it think we are moving, when in actuality, we are standing still.
scary stuff, kids. scary stuff. yeah i'm a total girl when it comes to this. i hate, hate, hate to spin! i do not like that sensation and is the primary reason why i never got on the "cool" rides at the now defunct, astroworld, or why i never wanted to drink alcohol. well, i still don't ride the rides, but i do indulge in adult beverages now. all in moderation of course.
ugh. so this was my weekend. not a total bust, but not the epic one that i had been planning. oh well, there's always next weekend to look forward to, right?