In my best Rocky Balboa voice, but minus looking beat-up, bruised and bloodied, I am shouting that infamous line at the top of my lungs. I did it! I made it through Lent and did not have an ounce of Coca-cola or caffeine AT ALL!!! That's right, I'm a bad-ass. For those of you who didn't get the Rocky movie reference or are wondering what the hell I'm talking about, let me explain. I'm Catholic. The Lenten season began on February 22nd and on that day, I decided to give up drinking cokes and not having any type of caffeine whatsoever. Today, Lent is officially over, as it is now 2:00 in the morning and Easter morning is dawning or will be dawning upon us soon. "So what's the big deal?", you may be asking. The big deal is that I am not a "follow-througher" at all. I start things but never finish. This is the first time in a billion years that I actually completed what I started. And let me tell you, it feels beyond awesome! Still shaking your head, wondering if I'm drunk or something? No, not drunk. Not tonight anyway. Kidding. I'm just so excited and proud of myself. This goes deeper than just giving something up for Lent. It means that I am capable of succeeding what I set out to do! I've accomplished what I set out to do. And that kids, is just fucking awesome!
Ok, I'm calming down now. But I'm still grinning ear to ear. Alright, Friday night when I posted about "the sighting", I was very emotional and not thinking clearly. Today, I've had time to digest what happened and have let it go. Just, let it go. He is a part of my past. He is someone I will always care for deeply, but he is of no significance to my life. I think seeing him, was therapeutic in a way. It forced me to shut that door, that up to this point, I'd.always left ajar, hoping. Like I said Friday night, always look for the positive in a bad situation. So that's that.
Why in God's holy name, am I still awake at this hour, I have not a clue! I've got all this energy and can't fall asleep. So I came here, and will probably watch something mind-numbing on the tele, until I pass out. But in the meantime, who else is awake and what are you doing? And do you have any home remedies I can try to fall asleep? Here's what I got so far:
1. warm milk -made me thirsty for water
2. counting sheep -i counted ex boyfriends instead. major fail since i'm still awake and now mad.
3. exercising -worked out at midnight. uh, yeah i'm still awake.
4. sleeping pill -LIAR! am still awake
5. calling my friend rene -can't do that anymore since we're no longer friends. too bad, we would talk until one of us fell asleep -usually me.
6. sex- ok this one i did not try for obvious reasons. ie-no man in my life
And there you have it -my ideas for falling asleep. Your turn...
While you think about it, I'm going to log off and go bang my head against the wall. Or, something less dramatic and less painful, like watching a really boring movie. .
A beautiful and wonderful Easter Sunday to everyone!