When I walked into my office this morning, I got settled in and as I sat down in front of my computer, the little "beep" sounded, alerting me that I had new email. It was a mass email to everyone on our floor. As you may or may not know, I work for a small law firm. We sublet from a much larger firm. So the email came from the main partner of that firm. The subject line read, "Robin". It took me a few minutes before I realized they were referring to one of the paralegals that works for them. The email started, "It it with great sadness..." A lump formed in my throat and my stomach did somersaults. Robin had succumbed to the beast that is breast cancer earlier this morning. She fought the good fight for almost a year. I've only been at this job for about nine months. Robin was one of the first ones to welcome me and even gave me the "grand tour". She was a very nice and very sweet woman. Even though near the end, she was in very visible pain and discomfort, she always, always had a smile on her face. I will never forget that. She was only 48 years old but looked well over sixty. She walked like my 89 year old grandmother used to walk. She used to wear fedoras with diamond studs on them. I swear she had one in every color imaginable. Robin worked until about three weeks ago. The last time I saw her, she and I rode the elevator together down to the deli. She could barely walk, yet here she still was. After reading that email I sat in my chair and started crying. I cried for this woman who I barely knew. I cried for her family and friends she left behind. The office was very somber today. Eerily quiet. Everyone it seems was walking on eggshells. Everyone was extra nice to one another. Even the "Negative Nellies".
In our haste to live our lives and get things done, we often forget or lose sight of the bigger picture. We're not going to be here forever. We only live like we are. Death puts things into perspective. A reality check of sorts. Actually, any major event does that. Good news, bad news, even "no news". It's all in us as to what or how we react to such situations.
There is another star in the sky tonight, shinning brightly. Rest in peace Robin.