When I was a little girl, my mom gave me a Walt Disney book. It contained numerous fairy tales and had vibrant, colorful pop-up pictures. My dad would read that book to my sister and I at bedtime while my mom brushed our hair or just laid in bed with us. My sister's favorite story was Cinderella. Mine was Snow White. Both had a common denominator: Prince Charming. I would be lying if I said that I did not get caught up in all the hoopla of today's Royal Wedding that took place across the pond. The fact that I've been up since 3:30 a.m. and it's now a little before 11:00 p.m. should tell you how much of a "fairy tale" lover I am. And I am. I remember watching Princess Diana marry Prince Charles. I was about 14 or 15 years old. I remember waking up at the wee hours of the morning and jumping into bed with my mom to watch the wedding. Just like today. We both wore our pajama finest! We were after all, watching regalia.
While watching the ceremony, my mom whispered to me in Spanish, "Ya llegara tu principe." Meaning, "Your prince will come." I just rolled my eyes in indifference. But that stuck with me all day. I kept thinking about the little girl that used to play dolls and always, always played "The Wedding" with Barbie and Ken. Even back then, I was hopeful. I just knew that I too, would have a "prince". But as the years go on and I am still here, alone, I can't help but wonder what happened to that little girl's dream? Don't misunderstand, I'm not jaded and certainly not cold. But I do think that I'm "indifferent" when it comes to hoping for "someone" to come into my life. I would like to think that I still believe in fairy tales, but the reality of it is, not so much. I do believe in love, and am a hopeful romantic, still. And I believe that my heart would compliment someone else's heart very well. But I don't dwell on it. As I get older, I realize that life is not for dreaming it away. Life is for living and hoping. We must never lose hope. And that's not to say I won't give someone (anyone at this point --kidding! I have to find the humor in this you know!) a chance. For now, that's all I can do. Live my life the best way I know how, and making myself happy. But today, today was all about fairy tales and princesses and princes and love and and outrageous hats! Good grief! Some of them were waay, waaay out there!
Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to take my tiara off and go to sleep.