Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Eye poking and kicking ass!

Sometimes, I hate my job.  A lot of times, I hate my job.  More specifically, I hate the bullshit that goes along with it.  I've been working in the legal field for over twenty years now.  I was 20 when I started and I'm 44 now, you do the math.  Some people have asked me why I didn't go to law school?  I always tell them that I didn't want to go to school anymore.  I had just graduated from college and I thought my career was going to be in journalism.  But I kept going back to law.  At any rate,  the real reason I didn't go to law school was that I never thought I was good enough to be a lawyer. I felt better remaining behind the scenes.   My career in this industry has given me all kinds of experiences and knowledge and opened doors for me.  So, even though I don't have a law degree, I just have my paralegal certification, I could be one, I already work like one. :)  It took a long time for me to learn the ropes of working for lawyers.  I think I've covered all facets of mood swings known to mankind!  The yeller, the sex fiend, the asshole (well, they're ALL assholes, some more so than others), the prima donna, the anal retentive, the slave driver, the young buck who thinks he/she knows it all, the "I'm a woman lawyer so that entitles me to be a bitch and have no sense of humor -or style for that matter", the great boss (only happened once so far), and on and on, you get the picture.  Today is one of those days I want to not only poke him in the eyeballs, but also run out screaming! I've had it! Sometimes the pressure and the stress is too much for me.  Don't get me wrong, I do love what I do -most of the time.  But times like today, when the weight of the world is on my shoulders, (at least that's how I feel) I want to tell him to shove it up his ass!  But I can't.  I have to do this pesky thing called "pay the bills" and on occasion, eat.  Sigh, what I really want to do with my life is to write.  That's it.  Just write and get paid for it.  Maybe get a house on the beach where I can write my heart out.  Yeah, I'm hallucinating again. I mean, I would love to do this, but in reality, I can't afford to do it.  Just last week I was talking to one of the Musketeers, Maricela, and I told her that I wanted to run away.  Just run away.  She asked me where, and I told her somewhere where I could start over and reinvent myself.  Somewhere like, Spain. I've always, always wanted to go there. And I will.  Just not right now.  Maybe get a job at a pastry shop or a book store... Meh! Ok, I hear the Beast coming forth.  Time to get back to doing my boss's job work.

As always, thanks for dropping by and feel free to slap the "crazy" out of me on your way out.



Anonymous said...

You'll get through it Yvonne. I would never set foot as an employee for a lawyer because I hate dealing with the people that can snake their way around anything.

You'll find a way to do what you want. It'll all work out in the end.

Robin said...

You do realize that you have a writing advantage, don't you? If you want to write fiction you can write legal fiction. It is awesome to know the ins and outs of a "career" like law or medicine. You know the terminology. You know what it is realistic and what isn't. What makes for good story and what doesn't. Where does the line of plausibility begin and end? You are your own source. You don't have to escape to Spain. You just have to start writing.

Shady Del Knight said...

They're everywhere! The same cast of characters that you described in your workplace can be found in every type of business. Sitcoms like The Office thrive on those stereotypes. I recognized each one immediately and worked with them all in both the television news and entertainment divisions. I frequently had the desire to say "you can take this job and shove it." Please don't let it get you down and keep you down. By the time you're ready to call it quits circumstances tend to improve and that's how it goes. Write on, write on!

Belle said...

I know this may sound crazy, but unless your family needs your money, I would take off for a while. If you can't get to Europe and work, then go somewhere else. A town that is completely different than where you live.

I guess the job market isn't good right now though. You would have to research, but why work every day with people who are horrible. Life here is too short. If you love the mountains, go there. If you love the ocean, try it out. I guess what I mean is; if it is at all possible - go for it. My mom worked for lawyers and accountants and hated it. She found that she enjoyed working for charity organizations. She said people who work in those fields are usually wonderful people.



..With you there's never a dull moment. :-) Keep your head up and be careful about what you post. Unfortunately, some folks have lost their jobs due to "freedom of expression." Take care.

Average Girl said...

I'm a paralegal too Yvonne... 24 years i have been working in what i call nonsensical crap... i started at 18..., ironically i was going to go into journalism as well.... crazy huh... Lawyers are a breed of their own well at least the ones in North America! I feel for you!

Average Girl said...

PS..... thank you for your lovely comment Yvonne! xxoo

Yvonne said...

Ditz - lol -thanks girlie! i appreciate it!

Robin - yep i do. the novel that i am am currently working on is a legal thriller. and most of my short stories that i write are all based around the law. you're so right, i have a vast, vast, array of stories to tell! names will be changed of course! ;)

Shady - Eh, I just let him get the better of me today. It was a bit much. I'm good now. ;)

Belle - I'm seriously contemplating something extreme like that!

Jennifer - Thanks for the advice. And I will get throug this.

AG - Really? Wow, that's so random! Then you know all to well about that which I write about! lol

♥ The Lyrical Designer ♥ said...

wow!! what a post for me to come to!!! You should play pranks on all of them. like powder their bums or epoxy their seats or mix glue in their coffee or scribble all over their stuff with invisible chalk!! ( ok im revealing too much of my personality)

all i have to say is you sure have determination and long suffering!!! i am sure they couldnt do without out.. after all those years of learning the ropes and putting up with the nonsense...they NEED you.. they just dont have the guts to say it!!!

its great to read you again!!!

Cinderita said...

Awe-SOME! You rock my world. I love this! Kicking ass is the best way to go on a day like you had! And wouldn't it be amazing to quit your job and get paid to write? *sigh*. You might not want to knwo this but I will say it anyway. you are exactly where you need to be at exactly the right moment. All the dots will connect. xx


I say you go somewhere and gamble.

Yvonne said...

LD -Yay! You're baaaack! Ha! I would love to play pranks on them believe me! If I could get away with it, I totally would!

Rita- hehehehe, thanks doll! I hear what you're saying, i'm just frustrated. i want the dots to connect NOW! :)

Israel - Vegas baby!!! lol I'm actually planning a trip closer to home. As in Louisana. It's not Vegas but, it's closer and cheaper and it will do for right now. :)

wheatgerm said...

well said

Mister King said...

I like this post...You should be saving up to run away. You really don't need that much. I'd say around $20,000 and you could find a nice apartment in a different city and start fresh. Maybe you should take $10,000 and start gambling with it and try to turn it into $100,000. Then you could tell your boss to kiss your ass.

I'm going to be following you now, so keep up the good writing.

Yvonne said...

Wheatgerm - thanks, and come again.

MK- Thanks for the follow! And yes, I am mapping out a plan!