Wednesday, November 17, 2010

At Last

I wanted to take a moment and thank all of you for the comments and/or the emails I received with words of encouragement regarding my last post. I appreciated it very, very, much! And not to worry, all is better.

Moving on.

My 70 year old father is planning on traveling to Nicaragua this Sunday. He has been wanting to go back and visit for years but just never made it a point to actually do it. Until now. Nicaragua is located in Central America. He was born in Managua and came to the United States at the age of seventeen. When my brothers and sister and I were little, he would tell us stories of his childhood. Colorful, extreme, happy times for him. He always told us that he wanted all of us to go visit one day. Sadly, none of us will be joining him. He will be making the trip alone. He still has some family and friends living there. But his visit home has me a bit uneasy. First of all, he is deathly afraid of flying! Once, while traveling to Acapulco, he almost passed out because our flight had severe turbulence and kept dropping in altitude! I'd never seen my father turn so many colors at once! lol My other concern is his health, while he's pretty healthy, what if something happens to him while he's there? I'm just a worrier, I know this. I am excited that his dream will finally become a reality. I just hope he has a great time and comes back safely. So my brothers and sister and nieces and nephews and I will be having an early Thanksgiving dinner with him this Friday. Good times for sure! You know it's funny, I don't have what you would call a "normal" relationship with my dad -for many reasons that I will keep to myself. Lets just say, I keep my distance. Oh we are on speaking terms and all that, it's just that I am guarded and pull away if he gets too close. But sometimes, like now when I'm worrying about him, I start thinking about how old he is and that despite our differences and the pain he caused me and my family, he is still my dad. He's the one I was given and I can't give him back! lol They don't have a return policy on parents! Faults and all, I do love him, in my own way.

Buen viaje papa!

8 comments:

The Adorkable Ditz said...

I'm sure he'll have a wonderful trip.

I remember doing a report on Nicaragua for Spanish. Hated it.


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Yvonne said...

Why did you hate it? I'm curious.

ISRAEL CARRASCO said...

I'm glad you are finding peace.

Shady Del Knight said...

This was very nicely expressed, Yvonne, and reminds me of my older brother. We have never been very close because he neglected and mistreated me when we were kids. For decades I've been running that program and haven't given a relationship with my brother enough of a chance. A week or so ago I paid him a visit for the first time in four years and I met an entirely different man than I remembered. We had a great time together and now I am looking forward to our next visit. That's called breakthrough territory.

Yvonne, I want to take this opportunity to thank you for your well wishes last night and for lending your support to my blogging effort. It means a lot to me, my friend!

♥ The Lyrical Designer ♥ said...

My dad and i used to be best friends! and then i grew up! :( i dont know what it is... but i just couldnt share my heart with him anymore... and the strange part is... nothing really happened to cause that.

i love my dad but i guess its getting harder to not get treated as a kid anymore!

Yvonne said...

Thanks guys! I appreciate all of your comments!

Belle said...

When I fly I sometimes take Ativan - which just calms a person. Usually, doctors will give it to people who are flying. I'm sure your dad will have a wonderful time when he gets there. It is nice of you to have concern for him.

Yvonne said...

Thanks Belle! I'm sure he will be just fine. I'm just a worrier by nature! lol