Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Letting Go

For the longest time, I have been holding on to something that I never had. A fantasy. But there comes a time when you have to ask yourself, "How much longer?" I woke up this morning determined to stay focused and keep sight of what I want and where I want to be and what I need to do to get there.

Determined.

I should have done this long ago, but again, I was weak when it came to this and so, I would give in to temptation, lose all sef-control and repeat the pattern for years.

Until today.

I finally let go. I finally purged myself of something that I had grown addicted to. Closed the door. That what I speak of is nothing drug or alcohol related, so family and friends, don't call me! :) But addiction nonetheless. I use the word "addiction" because it's the closest I can come to defining how I felt -or still feel but working on it.

I realized that in order for me to heal emotionally, mentally and physically, I first had to rid my life of the "clutter" that blocked my way. The "addiction" was a main obstacle. Somehow, I mustered up the necessary courage to just "let it go".

And I cried, and I cried and I cried -for many reasons. But I feel lighter now, and almost empowered. Weird I know.

Amazing what a little "house cleaning" can do for your outlook in life!

I am grateful for those few people who know what I am referring to. I would be a basket case were it not for them! I am truly a lucky girl! :)

And so, it's done.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

The beginning of a defining moment...SWEET!....you go gurl!