What is it about Christmas that makes everyone a little sappier than usual? Is it Santa? Is it the elves? Or is it God doing his thing? I think it's a combination of all of that. With every tragedy that happens in this world of ours, I think we hang on to Christmas a little bit tighter, hoping and wishing for better times, for better lives, for better, period. Last night, as I was surrounded by family and close friends, I did a lot of reflecting and reminiscing and took inventory of my life, these past twelve months. While seemingly, my life is pretty great, there is still room for improvement and change. And rest assured I'm doing it, making it happen, but as you know, Rome wasn't built in a day and all that. So these changes and improvements in my life are going to take a little longer, which is fine. I'm where I need to be right now. Of course, there are regrets. Wrongs that cannot be made right. Words said that can never be taken back... Maybe it was the nostalgia, or being surrounded by all that warms my heart, or it being Christmas Eve, or maybe even the glasses of wine I had indulged in. Maybe it was all of that, that made me reach out to someone that I had stopped talking to, almost two years ago. I extended the olive branch and he took it. And just like that, the past couple of years without him in my life, disappeared. We cried, we laughed, we got angry and cried some more, we apologized to each other and then laughed again. It was as if all of the hurt and resentment and pride and anger and accusations, disappeared. I felt relieved and so very happy. You have no idea! It was as if a heavy burden had been lifted off my shoulders. Immediately, I felt lighter and my heart smiled again. I think the time we were apart was necessary in a way, to allow us to get over all of those feelings I mentioned. At least, that's how I like to rationalize it.
I have no idea whether our friendship can ever be the way it was. Nor am I sure that I want it to be that way again. All I know is that I have my friend back, and he has his friend back, and that's enough. For now. My PSA for the day? Right your wrongs. Forget about the past and the pain. Life is so short, so precious, don't waste it on anger. I guarantee you that you will feel a hundred times better, if you just let it go and forgive. After all, tis the season...
How was your Christmas? I feel like I've been away for a long time! It's good to be back. I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday. As usual, Santa forgot a few of my things. I'm seriously going to have to send Mrs. Claus a letter of complaint. Santa's slacking! But anyway, humor me, what'd you get for being good all year???
That's it for now kids. I'm super tired and need to go to bed. Unlike some of you out there, I have to work tomorrow. Bleh! But at least it's already hump day.