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Sunday, March 25, 2012

the inner battle

Ever since I was a little girl, I was taught to have "hope", to be "hopeful" for all that I wanted or aspired in life.  Hope is becoming more and more elusive to me. And tonight, as I write this, I feel anything but hopeful. Let's just say, life just keeps knocking me down and I'm so very tired.  It's becoming harder and harder for me to get up and fight back.  Just when I feel I can breathe easily and sigh with relief, something else goes wrong or falls apart or blindsides me.  And right this second, I'm still on the ground...

Not in much of a blog mood tonight guys.  Sorry about the Debbie Downer post.  I really just wanted to voice my frustrations.  Even if it's just via the computer.

Have a great week everyone.

7 comments:

Insomniac #4 said...

Hang in there Yvonne. Life is full of ups and downs. You'll be back 'up' soon. Hope you feel a bit better after posting this. :)

Belle said...

Losing hope is a big one. Knowing you though, you will bounce back. There is nowhere to go but up! Life does have a way of knocking you over time and again. I do hope you feel better soon. Love and hugs.

Random Girl said...

You are totally allowed to have Debbie Downer moments. It just has to happen sometimes. I won't shove sunshine anywhere uncomfortable for you darling, just know that even the worst day is only 24 hours long and then you get a chance to make the next one better. Incremental "betters" will compound eventually. Treat yourself to something that reminds you how special you are!

Robin said...

You truly give up hope and you lose the game. The game of life that is. It is okay to get mad and even be depressed, but hope is the thing that fuels us and keeps us going. Without it, we would never get out of bed. Start playing the "Wouldn't it be nice if..." game out loud. It is fun in the car. Wouldn't it be nice if traffic were smooth today? Wouldn't it be nice if the boss were in a good mood? Wouldn't it be nice a stranger smiled at me today? Think of as many random things as you can. And do it every day. You will be surprised how much it brightens your day (for one) and excited when some of them actually start happening. You will find yourself playing it more and more. It is a very soft way of throwing your wants into the universe..... Wouldn't it be nice if it made you feel better?

((Hugs))

The Frisky Virgin said...

Oh, sweetie, I know what you mean. I don't know what it is about this week, but I'm feeling similarly. So, the quitting soda thing hasn't been successful. Ugh. Just remember, hope is tough to destroy--it keeps finding its way back. *HUGS*

Yvonne said...

Insomniac- Thanks, I feel more optimistic today. And yes, voicing my frustrations be it on paper, verbally or on the computer, helps tremendously!

Belle- Thanks sweets! I appreciate your words!

RG- Aww, you're the best! Thanks for your words!

Robin- Awesome!I loved your game! And you know what? It made me feel better. Thank you!

FV- Thanks! I feel better. and I know these troubles will pass. Don't know when exactly, but they will, pass.

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