Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Life 1 - Yvonne 0

I was thinking about my blog this morning.  It's a very "moody" blog I think. Some would even say borderline bipolar almost.  Happy, sad, euphoric, depressed, angry, indifferent, in love, in lust, defeated, successful, beautiful, ugly.  You get the picture right?  Sigh, it's been over a year since I started writing again.  As those of you who follow me on a regular basis know, a lot has happened to me in this year.  Something that jumps at me by re-reading some of my posts is that I am a resilient woman.  I get knocked down, but immediately  eventually find crawl  my way back up.  I find that to be pretty amazing, don't you? I totally rock!  So even after all this, and realizing how strong I am and how my life seemingly is going well, why is it that it only takes one piece of bad news, one look, one statement, to make me feel as if the walls of life have caved in and are falling on me? Kind of like when you play Jenga (if you play) and you're sweating and trying to keep your hand steady, and you're down to that one  last piece that will either keep the structure intact or cause it to come tumbling down all around you.  Yeah, that's how I feel today.  I want to wave my little white flag and cry "Uncle" already!  ---Why would anyone cry "uncle" anyway? Hmm, seems silly to me.  Ugh! See what I mean?  I can't even stay on topic!  So, this is how I'm feeling today.  Defeated.

I'm hitting the gym after work. If for nothing else, than to kick the punching bag's ass!


The Frisky Virgin said...

First off, I think your blog shows the wide range of emotions we all feel from time to time. If anyone says they never feel defeated then they are either lying or really, really lucky and probably really annoying. ;)

I'm sorry you are feeling like life's kicking you in the butt. Let life have a day of fun, then come back and Buffy it's a** tomorrow. ;)


Cinderita said...

I agree wholeheartedly with FV. You are a woman and therefore you have a range of emotions that you deal with and you share it. That's what blogging is all about.

And you know what? I bet that punching bag is gonna be sorry!

Alessandra said...

I agree with the two chicas above, if your blog was always the same, I'd start thinking you're an android rather than a human. I think that's the most appealing about your blog, we get to see the real you, up, down, sideways, that's what's good about blogging, it makes you become real, if you let it. DOn't change it please, and go kick that bag's ass...:)

Robin said...

I think that we all have our limits. And once we hit ours, it doesn't take a whole lot to keep us constantly on the verge of losing it. That is not a good place to be. That is when it becomes really important to be good to yourself in every way possible. Hang in there!

Yvonne said...

FV- ha! The Buffy reference made me laugh! Thanks doll, I'm doing just that!

Rita- Thank you! And that punching totally whimpered at my pented aggression!

Alessandra- I won't change it. And I totally kicked it's ass! :)

Robin- thanks for your words. they were heard loud and clear! :)

Jo-Anne Rambling said...

This was the best read I have had all day it really picked me up and then it threw me on the floor and finally grapped me by the shirt and gave me a shake just what I needed

'Yellow Rose' Jasmine said...

I love a good blog with some real vitality. That is you, for sure. Nothing boring going on here! Yet I do see that it is never good to push yourself to the limit. Blogging is a good outlet for this.

Don said...

The word that comes to my mind that describes your blog is "Eclectic", which also happens to be the name of a little town about 20 miles away from where I live.

Pretend you're a bird......A Yellow-bellied Seed Sucker. If at first you don't suck seed, try, try, again. :-) said...

I think we're all bipolar, whether we've been diagnosed or not. Or, maybe just us ladies.
Hope you really kicked ass!
PS My posts stopped feeding again. (I need a punching bag). Please visit anyway. Thanks.

Yvonne said...

Jo-Anne- Great! I'm glad you enjoyed it!

YRJ- yes it is my safety net, my punching bag and my therapy!

Don- heh, you got jokes.

Robyn- I think we're all just a lil bit crazy!