Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Making Amends

Tonight I finally got the courage that I had been lacking to apologize to someone that I hurt very much. The guilt of my actions had been torturing me for months! But each time I reached for the phone to call them, I'd lose my nerve and hang up. I don't know what was so different or special about this night. Just a regular Wednesday night, I was sitting on my sofa, listening to music and having a glass of wine. Suddenly the overwhelming urge to speak to this person came over me. And without hesitation, I grabbed my cell and dialed the number. For the next hour I engaged in a much needed conversation with my friend. I apologized for my actions, begged forgiveness and gave my reasons for my behavior. Truly, it was never my intent to hurt this person. All is now forgiven and water under the bridge. And I can sigh with relief and maybe even contrition. Sometimes even the most best intentions get skewed and fuzzy. I marveled at how easy it was for my friend to forgive me. I am not so sure I would have acted as kind. How about you? Do you forgive easily? Are you a forgive and forget kind of person? Or a forgive but not really kind of person?

Ok, that's all for now, I need a refill.

10 comments:

Shady Del Knight said...

I have suffered some bad burns along the way and it has been surprisingly hard for me to forgive the people who inflicted them. Fortunately I was able to put a lot of geography between us and decades have passed, yet the memories still torment me and all the NLP in the world can't keep them out of my head. If I was ever in contact with the parties involved and they apologized and expressed remorse, I know I could and would forgive them. The problem is that I don't want to get anywhere near those people and have no desire to reopen the wounds by tracking them down by phone or internet. Therefore, I suppose I'll never know if they are remorseful or would offer an apology. Such is life.

ISRAEL CARRASCO said...

I had a situation where I had a fall out with a good friend. We didn't speak for many years and later made peace but even after speaking with him years later, I realized that he is kind of a dick so making peace was important but so was being realistic about how people are- good or bad.

Miss Vicki said...

I forgive easy. As long as the apology is genuine I will forgive but I don't tend to forget easy.

The Adorkable Ditz said...

Depends on who and what they did. If it was someone like my bestest friend in the whole world doing something that she didn't mean to do or whatever, probably that'll be fine, otherwise I don't know. It all depends on he situation.

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Yvonne said...

Israel - That sucks! Fortunately, I've not encountered that type of friend -yet. lol

Miss Vicky- I'm like you, I forgive but I have a hard time forgetting.

Ditz- I hear ya! :)

Yvonne said...

Shady - I totally get what you're saying!

Me, myself and I said...

Good for you! I forgive, there is just something inside me that knows I am not perfect and can't expect anyone else to be. We all make mistakes. Both of my closest friendships have been through major betrayals and I have forgiven. One friend is not currently talking to me and when she finally does call me...I will forgive her.
BTW...NaNoWriMo starts Monday...are you so excited? I am...let's be each others cheerleaders!
Jess

Yvonne said...

Hi Jess and thanks for the follow! I'm totally psyched for Nano!!!

♥ The Lyrical Designer ♥ said...

Yvoooooooonnnneee :) i like you already. It takes a humble person to just DO IT.
You have a loving heart and those who do, asking for forgiveness is never too hard.

Hugs

Yvonne said...

Thanks LD! :)