Letter to My Future Love

I wrote this a few years ago for Valentine's Day.  I know February 14th is still weeks away but with so much negativity and hate being spewed these days, I decided to post it again -for old time's sake.  And, to put  the universe on notice that I am ready for love to find me.  Maybe it will work this time.  -Enjoy bloggies :)

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My dearest,

I write to you these words that are in my heart

I would say them aloud to the entire world if you let me 

I never imagined I could be able to love so much

to give so much of myself to someone

and have them love me and give back to me with the same intensity,

the same passion.

You are the man I have been waiting for my entire life

You are the man made just for me

And I,

I am the woman made just for you,

that adores you with every fiber of her being

I am the woman that wants nothing more but to make you happy,

to fill your days with joy and laughter.

I am the woman that wants to spend the rest of her life with you 

going through the good, the bad and the ugly together,

Beloved, I always said that my knight and shining armor was lost and probably never going to find me at this point in my life.   But you know what?  Deep down I knew, I just knew that all of this love I have inside of me to share, was not going to waste away.  And I was right.  We found each other just in time.  At the right time.  

Thank you for giving me so much.  And you know that I am not talking about material things.   Every day with you is an adventure.  Even when we argue.  Every night with you is full of fervor, enticement, desire, lust, love and so much more.  

And for that and that alone, I am yours forever.  

 

           

The More Things Change...

 Last week three different friends lost their mom and dad. Covid being the reason for two of the deaths and the other one I am not sure what happened.  Indeed, it was a very sad and painful start to the week. Two of those friends I've known since grade school and the other friend, I met her through work, over twenty years ago.  I can't even begin to imagine the pain they must be going through.  And even though they are adults, some with children of their own, it still does not diminish their grief.  I pray for their comfort and strength to endure what they will be going through in the coming days and weeks ahead.  And I pray for the souls of Mr. R, Mr. G and Mama Synthia.  One of my biggest fears is losing a parent.  I'm fortunate to still have both with me.  But I worry for them every day.  

I wish I could say that that was the end of tragedy last week but as most everyone knows, it was not.  Last Wednesday, January 6, 2021, the United States Capitol was overtaken by domestic terrorists.  In what has been one of the most disgusting acts of violence against Americans I have been witness to, I had not felt so helpless, sad and enraged since 9/11.  As I watched in horror and disbelief at what was taking place, I feared for our country.  For my country.  How is it that the strongest, most dominant and revered countries in the world, could be reduced to our very own fellow Americans pitting themselves against one another?  What kind of fabled reality were they living in?  

I'm still disgusted.  I am still angry and I'm still sad.  There have been many an argument, many excuses, many lies also, as to what really happened, who was really behind it, etc.  All I know is that I watched with my own eyes, a bunch of despicable, poor excuse of human beings, beat up police officers, each other, destroy property, steal, and ultimately cause the death of 5 people, one that included a police officer that was there doing his job.  These savages had total disregard for law and order.  It makes me sick. I hope and pray with every fiber of my being that they are all caught, thrown in jail and serve time.  

And before anyone throws the "free speech"  argument at me, don't.  This had NOTHING to do with freedom of expression.  This all came down to an outcry because the masses did not like the outcome of an election.  An election that was ruled fair by the Supreme Court.  An election that was legally won.  That's how stuff gets done in America.  At this point, I don't give a rat's ass if people are offended or appalled.  I'm angry dammit.  I'm ashamed.  I'm frightened for not only our country, but the world we live in.  

It was not enough to have this ridiculous virus come into our lives last year.  Oh no.  Now these ingrates want to destroy our country too?  Yeah.  Not on my watch.  I will do everything I can to ensure this does not happen.  And as so many people told me over and over and over again when Donald Trump won in 2016, "Leave this country if you  don't like it"  - I say the same thing to them.  "Get out.  You're not wanted here".

-peace.

January 6, 2021

In my head I had all the words that I wanted to write.  But my heart is just not in it.  Not this time.  Today's events by the domestic terrorists/thugs, made me sick.  Physically sick.  Nothing about what happened was American or patriotic.  Nothing.

America is broken and crying tonight.

-peace.